*sniiiiifff*

as i write, i am relaxing in a state a little south of comfortable in a white wife beater, a sweater, and boxer shorts. i have a mug of tea next to me along with some sort of nasal spray. 

i got nothing on my list done today, save for my easy homework and making shopping plans with matt. i stayed inside, drank tea, ate soup, and watched Dirty Jobs reruns. 

tomorrow i will most likely have to drag myself out of bed, drink some tea, eat some oatmeal, and get cracking on my other homework. 

i will not be going to church or youth group or choir (yes, i am doing that), which is a huge disappointment. 

why? 

i am sick. 

i have a head cold. 

no, it's not h1n1, i've checked. i don't have body aches or a sudden fever. 

i am tired, i feel like i've had two pens jammed up my nose, and then beaten about the head with a 2x4. 

i am going to sleep. 

side note

i think i have found one of my long-lost friends on facebook. 

haley caffey (presley, you know her). 

but i don't know if it's my haley caffey. 

i mean, how weird would it be to be some random haley caffey in dallas and get a friend

request from this random chick in north carolina?

xtc?

no, silly. not that crappy band. i just felt bad putting the name of a drug on my blog. 

today was decent. well, more than decent. 

school was good, i killed at this dance to "i'm the one" by mary j. blige.

lunch was fun. 

i taught my friends this game where you say, "____, but not ____."

there's a pattern to which words can be used and you aren't supposed to tell the

others The Rule. and the object of the game is to figure out what the rule of the game is.

so i told it to my friend Waffles so we can piss everyone off on monday. :D

it's a great game. it's called, "odd, but not peculiar"

but i'd start out saying something like, 

"strawberry, but not banana." 

and then someone else would say something like,

"all, but not many."

and then someone would say something like, 

"grape, but not cherry."

"WRONG."

and then they'd be like "what the heck is wrong with that answer? is there a rule of some kind?"

wanna know the rule?

i'll tell you the rule.

ok. the first word in the pair has a double letter (like "strawberry").

but if you said something like, "jelly, but not peanut butter," you'd be wrong because both words have a double letter and that just can't happen. oh, and the words don't have to relate to each other.

it's great fun.

and la-di-da up to spanish. we had our first quiz thing. i only got one wrong (yay me) 

and i know now that matt is officially kick-ass. yesterday he and i had a huge convo about sunglasses (he has some dolces, i have kate spades, and we both have raybans.) and today

he said, "liz, i really like your tory's."

heck yes. not only did he properly identify the brand of flats that i was wearing, but he called them tory's. i think i've found a new best friend.

yep. so that was my day. 

madonna, but not britney.

hai thurr

wow. i've been in school almost a full week! 

already i'm exhausted. 

i have a ton of homework every night, and i usually get distracted by things like

facebook, makemebabies.com, and stuff like that...

but tonight i'm going to do this thing at church

and i won't get back until late, so i have to knock it out before 5:00. 

yeaa. 

beeteedubs, i went to youth group on sunday for like the first time in a few months. 

last time i went, one of the lawyers in our congregation came to talk to us. it turned out that it was this hypocritical asswipe who also happened to be my dad's divorce attorney. yippie. 

needless to say, i kinda freaked out and haven't been back ever since. 

until last sunday. 

so i signed up for this thing every wednesday and we go visit old people or something. i didn't really read the description but it'll look good on any recommendations i may need. 

so whoa. i may have the most eclectic volunteer list ever:

- volunteered at art show

- volunteered at the Texas Planned Parenthood meeting thing

- volunteered to visit old people

cool. paintings, planed parenthood and people. 

ahh yes! my spanish news of the day. 

yesterday, senora lang called on me to answer this question in spanish and, of course, i had no clue how to say it in spanish. so i simply apologized for not speaking spanish and proceeded to answer the question in french. 

the french teacher laughed (she was in the back of the room). 

i doubt senora will call on me anytime soon. ;D

soo that's what's up avec moi. 

yeahh. 

happy of the day: i busted out "mad about you" before dance class and ms. owens liked it. 

wow.

i slept really late today, so i'm feeling very good.

currently i am watching the most random/crappy movie i've ever seen on tv. 

i have no clue what it is, but three people are battling mummies and they randomly kill people 

and blow up stuff and there is this random guy running about. also it has a really shitty script. 

"death... is only the beginning." followed by "gotta go!"

wow. that is profound. 

i am going to not watch this anymore. it's not even funny bad. it's just bad.

yippie

so it's official. i am not going to hate spanish as much as i thought i would. 

i have a new friend. his name is matt. matt is a freshman and he sits beside me and he honestly reminds me of presley. he commented on my awesome coloring skills (i decorated my binder with a picture of hello kitty in a sombrero. it's from my coloring book.) and he liked that i call my notebook my fiesta notebook. 

we also started learning the alphabet (el alfabeto or something). it was funish. 

i took chase with me to the durham bulls game tonight. it was great. i introduced him to TFLN which he thinks is much better than FML now. he's right. 

and then i came home and found this:

Today, My girlfriend and I were discussing how I am happy all the time and she is always complaining about something. Later on I noticed that she is an avid FML reader and I am an avid MLIA reader. Then it all came together. MLIA 

heck yes.

i feel like i have become an MLIAer. 

- i have built a fort

- i don't read FML

- i have a cat

- i have told random people that "my life is average" and "i love you."

- i bond with strangers

- i have had a duel with light sabers in target

the only thing i have left to do is yell "avada kedavra!" at someone. 

i realized today in chemistry that i haven't been sticking with my "i will not say hate" thing and my happy of the day. 

so tomorrow i will restart the "i don't say hate" thing.

and little bit of happy: i found really pretty pictures of me dancing. i may post them on facebook.

first day of school = success?

so today was the first day of my sophomore year

and i'm scared. 

surprisingly, chemistry isn't one of the classes i'm worried about. it's algebra 2/trig honors,

world history honors and spanish 1. 

let's go through each class one by one, shall we? we'll go in order.

english 10 honors: i really liked mrs. burns. she seemed really cool to begin with and i liked her much more once she referred to tyler hansbrough as a tool. 

world history honors: this class seems fun, but it'll be a lot of work. i like history though, but i'm horrid at dates.

dance 3 (now honors): the dance room was re-done!! marley floor, heck yes!!

lunch: i'm so glad that i have a lot of friends in 4th lunch, but it's too early for lunch. normal people don't eat lunch so early.

chemistry: mrs. smith is awesome and seems agreeable. hopefully i won't get sick as much as i did last year.

theology 10: mr. dmytriw (pronounced "duh mi tru." i know. i don't get that either.) seems like a more monotone and religious and certainly straight version of mr. hartman, my 6th grade advisor. we'll see how this class progresses.

spanish 1: well. i don't speak spanish. it is not my choice to take this class. i was the only sophomore in there and i was surrounded by freshman who have been taking spanish since they were in kindergarten. i don't like to get bested by anyone, particularly people younger than me. while in this class, i learned that there was going to be a german class but plans for that failed. if i had known, i totally would have taken german! i know lots of people that i could practice with. and hello! "kindergarten", "dachshund" and "wiener schnitzel." that's all german! 

i had a conversation with mme. smith after school about why i wasn't taking french. she told me that everyone was wondering where i was (since i helped everyone a lot last year) and that they all missed me. she also told me, "je ne peux pas voir que vous disant "hola!" c'est dommage. you are so good at french!"

i miss it. at least some of the words are similar to french. but it sounds so... raw. 

i agree with madame smith. c'est dommage.

algebra 2/trig. honors: our teacher wasn't there and won't be in for like two weeks. party?

i got all my binders. they're all lime green. i also got some notebooks. one has aquaman and batman on it (that's for chemistry) and another has michael scott (steve carrell's character on the office) with 'leadership' under the picture. that is for world history. i also got one to cheer me up in algebra. it's from the HSM3 collection and has zac effron (or zaquisha as he is lovingly known) on it. 

tres mignon. 

hmpf

big set back today.

i slept through two alarms and flipped the fuck out.

i don't do well in situations like that. so i took a shower and calmed down.

and then i flipped out about my hair. i realized that i don't like it too much with the bangs and all. it's hard to take care of and i wanted to grow it out. 

stupid, stupid me. i shouldn't make big decisions when i'm tired and not on my meds. 

seriously.

so i'm back to cleaning my room. the flip out set me back... a lot. 

woot. 

tralala

I was over at my aunt's house for the day so I could babysit for her kids while she did stuff. 

I woke up late, which meant the kids could do whatever unsupervised. D:

BUT THEN I redeemed myself by helping Grace paint her nails, helping Robert build a Lego helicopter (btw, Kathleen, I told them about your Sweet 16th idea and they now think I have really cool friends.) and to finish it off, gave them a super nutritious breakfast of waffles and gingerbread house.

I have officially been declared the coolest cousin in the world and the best babysitter. 

It made my life. 

And then I got paid. And that made my life even more.

So now I am trying to clean my room, which isn't going well. I decided to read MLIA and came across this lovely post:

Today, I realized that since switching from an avid FML reader to an avid MLIA reader, my life has seemed a lot less terrible, and a lot more average. Needless to say, I'm pleased with the trade-off. MLIA. 

And that, small children, is why the lovely, pretty and cool babysitter started this blog and stopped reading FML.

And now. The big mission for tomorrow. (dun dun dunnnn)

Tomorrow I will stop using the word "hate." I will instead use phrases like, "dislike greatly," "don't approve of," and "je n'aime pas qu'a tout."

yehaw. 

ayee

I apologize for the drastic lack of updates the past few days. 

You see, I am at my mom's house and I fixed the wireless approximately four minutes ago because I am a genius. And I couldn't blog from my phone.

Anyways, these past few days have been relatively well, aside from the fact that my great-aunt died and there was a big funeral on Saturday.

I got my nails done today which made me really happy. If any of you (If there are any of you.) follow me on twitter (http://twitter.com/emorganxx), you would know how happy it made me. 

I am in the process of unpacking and cleaning and rearranging my room and all this stuff that has to get done before school starts on Thursday and oh! It's a big mess. 

Oh yes. I remember what I was going to blog about today. For the past few days (since I couldn't blog.) I would tell myself things that I like to do and things I am good at. Kind of like my own version of this song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHTN4Jvi6lg

It helps a lot when I start to think stuff like, "I'm fat."

So today's little bit of happy is: I am a tech-goddess. I was able to fix a problem Dave, Jill and Agnes at Time Warner Cable couldn't. Hah. 

so hi.

Today was a fairly good day in my process. 

I went shopping and got a ton of goodies, including some hot new vans, which are my new love. I apologize to you, iPhone, but sorry. What can I say?

I had dinner with K and D. That went... better than I thought since it was sushi and I'm not a huge fan of raw... things. The conversation went well, and I didn't make any snafus such as on the way over. We were discussing vaccinations and how K's daughter got that nifty inhale-through-the-nose flu vaccination. Then I brought up how I never got that and I was terrified of needles and so on and so forth. I tried to save it by bringing up how even though I despise shots, I don't mind having my blood drawn. Then the convo went to that. Good save on my part, I think.

Anyways, my big project today was ridding myself of the negative facebook groups like, "I hate Tyler Hansbrough." (I didn't remove myself from "Tyler Hansbrough is a Girl" because like any good Duke fan, I have to dislike him). I just don't want to have that negative energy around me. 

Tomorrow's project? Trying to survive waking up at 7:30 a.m. and flying home to N.C. without accidentally biting someone's head off. (And by "someone," I mean my dad). I would like to go ahead and thank the people at Starbucks, who I'm sure will be fantastic, for dealing with me tomorrow and getting me my skinny vanilla latte. Yum.

oh my lord

This slipped my mind. 

I would really like to thank my friends and family for being so supportive of my unconventional method of blogging away my negativity, especially Anthony who I called last night in tears. 

As I was sitting in my shower, sobbing into the phone, Anthony made me list out things that I am good at, things that I like, and things that make me really happy. That conversation (or really, him listening to me mumble things like, "I can make a chocolate soufflé from scratch wahhhh.") made me realize I have a lot of things going for me and I need to focus on that. 

So I went to bed feeling better about that, and woke up in the middle of the night like, "I need to blog about this."

So thank you Anthony.

Second (or third) post in a day.

So anyways, today was my first day in a while not reading FML. I honestly think that it helped a little bit. 

The reason I decided to blackball it was because I felt like I was always looking for events during my day that were FML worthy, so not reading FML would therefore make me focus on things that are not FML worthy. 

And that is the last time I will mention FML. C'est fini.

In addition to my lounge day with Sloan, I had a tennis lesson which went well despite the fact that I was dead tired. I also had dinner at the club with my family and I taught my uncle this hand game. It gave me great joy that I was infinitely better at it than he was, and then my aunt kicked my butt during a speed round. It was a really fun night.

little by little

So after last night, I stayed in bed with my cats all day and watched Clueless. It was really enjoyable. I think that Clueless was a good movie to watch on my first official day of becoming positive because the main character, Cher, is able to transform herself from a totally clueless narcissistic snob into someone who has great friends and who cares about others. 

I really watched it because it was the only DVD I could find. 

So, I removed the link from FML from my bookmarks bar and moved the app to page 4 on my phone. It wasn't as grand as I imagined it feeling but I think it will make a difference... maybe.

What to do?

Hi. This is not my first blog. I believe my first blog was just a pointless blog about my life as a student. My second was about my life and classes at the American Dance Festival in '08. Then I had another one but it was another pointless one that I made because I was bored.

Why is this blog any different from my others? Well, this is not a blog about me, but for me. I have decided to start this blog because I am a generally negative person. Quite frankly, I don't like that much at all. 

After I saw the wonderful movie, Julie & Julia, I was inspired that writing a blog can change a person so much. Shortly after the movie, I was informed that I was negative which obviously made me very upset. I have been feeling that I haven't been as sunshiney as I could be and that comment made me realize that I had to do something.

So here I am on my blog at 2:00 A.M. doing something about my negativity. I will start small, of course, and work towards becoming as positive and happy as possible. So starting later today, I shall remove the link for FML from my bookmarks bar on my mac and move my FML app on my phone to a different page. As it is my guilty pleasure, seeing how this goes will be quite interesting.